Happy Birthday to me....-.-

In a half an hour almost it will be my birthday, hooray lmao. So... happy, not.
I'm really not looking forward to being 22, oh god. But some new challenges for me for my twenty-second year,
1. Earn some good money, doing whatever I have to, to achieve that goal.
2. Get a man... a good man.
3. Go on more trips with my friends.
4. Start the healing process, my heart is too fucked up...
5. Get my tattoo

That's just a few goals for this year...
I hope this year is better than my last. I ReALLLY hope so.
Later my darlings.


Birthday... too soon

Next week is my birthday, it felt like it came way too quickly this year. I mean... twenty-one just flew by. I want to be stuck at twenty one forever. Ugh lol. How I was the stories I read are true, immortality, a lifetime to do things with your life no regrets, instead of thinking of your life like a ticking timebomb. I hate that. I'm almost twenty-two and it makes me feel like forty will be here as quick as twenty-two did.
I'm not looking forward to my birthday as you can obviously conclude by the tone of this blog. But Its not just because of the aging process, (oh how I dread it) But its mostly because of ces... And how he will be married soon. and I feel like I'm losing grip of reality. I'm losing him, I've lost him, I want him back... but I can't.
Have you ever loved someone, that teases you sexually. You gave him your virginity or something as equally precious to you, someone that promises you not one tear or heartache, but gives you a thousand times the hurt that you've ever experienced. Not even the pain I go through feels this bad. He makes me happy, but makes me cry. He promised not to hurt me... he promised. I know you shouldnt take what men say to literally, but I shared everything with him. He wants to be my friend and I want him as a friend and more but I fear once he marries this woman... I'll lose him forever. I fear that he'll tell me I think we should stop talking, I think you should stop calling me baby, daddy, and all my other pet names for him. I think he'll let me down to the point where I'll be stupid. I've been fearing this for a long time. I've been heartbroken for over a year... and In march that will make TWO years. TWO years since he met her and told me... "Listen, Ive met someone. Her name is Carla, are you ok?" I remember those few words so well because that night all hell broke lose and I ended up in the hospital in the psychiatric unit. Now... if that happened, just because he told me he met someone, I dont want to think about what i'll do when he tells me or when i find out that they have tied the knot. Or when I've seen the pictures on his myspace or facebook.

I want to know what I did wrong, did I say something wrong did I do something wrong. Did i talk to much or too little, did I not tell him I needed him when he came to town. Did I react to impulsively. Did I not be who he wanted. Was I not pretty enough? Maybe thats it, I mean shes pretty, I dont feel pretty. People tell me Oh your beautiful any man would be a fool not to want you, if I'm so beautiful and if every man should want me... why doesnt he? I'm not pretty, I feel pathetic. I feel weak, he says I am but as a joke. But I feel it. All I know is that... my one birthday and holiday wish, if I could have ANYTHING in this world, anything at all. MY wish would be... him, for him to love me the way he loves her. I just want someone to LOVE me for ONCE.... Just once in my life I dont want to be the one crying over someone, I dont want to be the one that falls for that person first, I dont want to fall so hard and so deep that I cant get out of it. And thats how it is with him... I've fallen so hard... I've crashed & burned. I pray to God for help and guidance, but... all there is, is a numb shell, a broken heart & soul. Drugs numb the pain, alcohol makes a smile come to my face... I need substances just to keep me alive, SERIOUSLY how pathetic is that.

And I know someone will say You have to get over him hes no good for you bla bla... He's the only man that ever actually cared for him, and maybe it was fake maybe he never really cared about me at all. But for those five years... he made me feel like it was real. And now he'll have her for those years and... Wow... Ok.. enough babbling. I'm crying now ughhhh.
I hate my birthday ha....

Love you guys

Im on VACA...

Hey my lovelys Ive been on vacation for about a week now. I come back on Tuesday.
I hope everyone's thanksgiving was nice, ^.^
I was in florida for thanksgiving, then I went to Nassau Bahamas, then Freeport Bahamas.
I've been on Carnival Dream cruise ship, it's ok. Not that great, but it's ok.
The Bahamas was alright, Antigua is better. Lol. Sorry but it is, nicer people in Antigua, and the beaches are better in antigua as well. In the Bahamas it's way too westernized. The Atlantis hotel is a sight to see though, the architecture is amazing and the aquarium, but other than that its not that great.
The spas on the ship are really nice, hmmm whatelse...
The food sucks, lol its mediocre. The food used to be better. Over all I think Royal Caribbean ships are better.
I tried to see if I could upload any photos, Its not working. SO when I get back I'll post a bunch for you guys. See you guys next week. KIssses my lovelys. lol.

New Youtube Account?

Hey guys, yea thats right... I might be creating a new youtube account.
The reasons as to why I shall explain...
On my last youtube video I put up a song by Kaskade. If you guys watch alot of videos on youtube, then you have watched michelle. And she ALWAYS has music in her videos, especially Kaskade and other electronic type artists. So... in one or two videos of hers she has Kaskade's -4 a.m. That song and Imagination are the songs I used on my page, all of a sudden youtube has a problem... wth? So I dont know whats up with that, I'm actually mad because michelle can put whatever songs she wants on her videos but everyone else can't wtf is that youtube??? Ugh... whatever

So since youtube always complains about my music on my videos, i decided to start over with a new account and I'll be putting up some of my old videos that are on my current account. SO I'll be doing an offical video explaining all of this, hopefully all my subbers will just hop on over to my new place. lol

I'm going on a cruise with my mummy, I'll be doing a daily look for you guys so this will be the perfect time for all of this.

Finally a new post in like FOREVERRRR. lolol. YAY, I'll try my best to update you guys.

Style Black Obsession

Hi my lovelys,
My collection has arrived... *the angels sing*
I am in lo
ve...lust and everything else a person could possibly feel in terms of adoration for this collection. I love HK (hello kitty) but this is pretty cool as well.

Volcanic Ash Exfoliator **
Volcanic Ash Thermal Mask*
Nail Polishes- Nocturnelle, Baby Goth Girl**
, Seriously Hip**
Black Knight Lipstick*
Midnight Media Mattene

Night Violet Mattene*
Young Punk*
Gilt By Association
Blue Flame*
214 brus
Penultimate Liner**
Greasepaint stick (black)*
Smolder liner
Glimmergloss: Blackware*, Bling Black, Blackfire*
(items with {*} are items I purchased. Items with {**} are items I want)

Right now I'm ordering Seriously hip nail lacquer along with some of the other things, but I'm still waiting for the exfoliator to come back and baby goth girl nail lacquer. I'm also getting some dazzlecremes they are sooo pretty. I love Creme Allure.
It's been awhile since I did a blog post, I should try to do these more often...lets see how long it lasts lol.
Muahs my lovelys.
*double xoxo*

R.I.P. Michael Jackson : Short tribute on my blog

I'm still shocked. Michael was an idol, my idol and many of my friends would say the same thing. He will be missed tremendously.
I found out when it was still speculation, my mum and I was listening on 1010wins, and they said TMZ reported that he was dead first. He basically had cardiac arrest, then they claimed he was in a coma, then they confirmed his passing.
He was... Michael, I mean what can you say. All these wannabe new comers, want to be him, and we're inspired by him, but they can never be Michael. He was our modern day Hendrix for the pop world.
Life is so short... you never know. You have to live each day as your last. And people need to stop hurting people and just appreciate one another, no one knows when our time will come. In the end, money and fame and all of that doesn't matter.
I know I will miss him, and I know many others will as well. May his soul rest in peace.
Rest In eternal Peace Michael...
R.I.P. Farrah Fawcet...
(They are so chillin' in Heaven right now)
xoxo Amelia

Only me...

Hey guys, I made a couple of beauty videos today, but my mac is acting weird. Photobooth is not recording my voice, and I can't do a voice over because imovie won't accept the video. Ugh. annoying. But that is that. 
I need to address a matter because I dont think people comprehend or they dont want to understand, I dont know. But when I am angry or put into a compromising situation I get mad, livid, BEYOND pissed. And I vent. I am a writer, so the way I obviously vent out my emotions is by writing. I can't tell you how many journals I keep, and why I have blogs. I hate the fact that yea a bunch of people I don't know reads them. But I just love writing, and I like html and all of that. So I figure why not. Now... for the past year I have gone through.... alot of pain and emotional dysfunction. That's putting it mildly. When I vent out my emotions I write alot of stuff, I curse alot. But then I think about the situation and you know what I move on. Sometimes, especially one particular incident, I may and did forget the comment I placed upon a certain area. And I dont judge people, I try my best not to. But when someone pushes something in my face, especially shit I dont like, I will react in a bitchy way. I may be skinny but dont fuck with me. but honesty I may forget about these comments and a year later I am repremanded for them. But I in no way mean harm. Im not that type of person. But seriously, people have called me much MUCH worse, I have been called a slut bitch whore etc etc etc. The list goes on. And for me to just say I fucking hate someone, and get repremanded the way I was, is not fair. I don't think thats write. I say my sorries, and I truly mean them. But I get attacked, for an opinion I had a year ago, and all I say is that I hate the person... and then at the end I say I wanted to off myself. I dont get it. Maybe its just me. It's not important anyway, nothing I ever think or say is important. 

Anyway, I spoke to A.H. tonight, hes so sweet. He's the sweetest guy I ever met, seriously.  He's doesnt have all the bullshit, he doesnt have to prove himself. He's just real. And he doent promise things he cant keep. I told him not to say that he wont hurt me. I can't take another man saying, "I wont hurt you", because they always do. He's coming back in the city next week, I cant wait to see him. I only date older men like I said before. so he's significantly older than me, he's 34. Which isn't bad. ces is 32, ten years older than me. So A.H. is twelve years older, and he doesnt care about the whole age shit. I love that. I mean age is nothing but a number and anyone that focuses on that instead of the person, or focuses on distance instead of the person, is just looking for excuses. He's very supportive, thus far. we'll see how it goes. 
Well that's it my lovelys, ttyl . PEACE. ^.^

Retail Therapy...

Past few weeks I have been bad, I have brought so much crap lol not even funny. Makeup, coach bags, bcbg outfits, etc. It helps the first few minutes but then you pay for it later. SO its temporary relief then the madness comes again lol.

THe upcoming fall mac collections sound freaking fantastic. Omg I can't wait for the 24th, the black collection comes out. With black lipstick black lipgloss, etc. And then theres the mac make up art cosmetics collection, looks awesome. So much money to spend lmao. Can't wait. hehe.

Guys, guys, guys. drama drama drama. Men are so full of it sometimes. So I've been going out with this guy for a few weeks now. I like him, he likes me... alot. It's cool, he wants to call me his gf, So Im like cool. lol yay. He's nice, sweet. He's consistent with the feelings unlike any other guy Ive liked. He doesn't change on me, well at least NOT YET. I only date older men so yeaa. But with other men, drama galore. Mike has this thing that he thinks I want to be his woman. I dont. Not in my lifetime. He has his problems, God only knows I have my fucked up shit. I realllly do not need someone that has more problems than me, I'll end up going over the bridge.

My cat is evil sometimes, but he looks like an angle when he sleeps lol.

OoO I can't wait till I go on vaca lol. I'm going to Vegas, St. Croix, and probably Aus. like around the end of summer, early fall. YAY. Depends on how everything pans out, my friend natasha is coming with me to Aus. And Amanda and steph and Maricon are going to vegas. My mum and me are going to santa cruz (st. croix). YAY. heh
That's it for now, luv ya guys. Peace.

xoxo Amelia

Another Monday

Ugh, sorry have not been persistent with my blog. Been going through quite a bit lately, trying to stay alive... that's all I can do right now. Been sick as hell. Was in the hospital for a bit, came out now I'm totally euphoric 24/7. And then, just because of my shitty luck, I sprained my ankle and fucked up my arm. Lmao. Luckyyyy. Lolol But Im alive, its the best I can hope for. Anyway, updates :

Ordered some stuf from Mac and ACW.
I am in love with ACW, ( BUTTTT, I need to contact them because of a dazzleglass, I received. Rue de Rouge, its from the euroistricrats collection, thats coming in July I think. It looks used. There's product all over the stopper, and the new brushes are stiff and hard... this one was not. It was used. So this is the only problem I have found with ACW. Otherwise it's a pretty damn good site. Especially for brushes.

Right now watching Street Kings, love that movie.
You guys can catch me on Twitter, I'm mostly on there it seems now a days. I try to avoid Myspace as much as possible, because I'll always end up ... crying and it's this whole mess, I get pissy, etc. etc.

Some Looks for you guys.

Hey guys, sorry for the non-posting. I haven't been paying much attention to my blog. Been so tired lately. But anyway updates on life...

I got my Rose Romance collection. YAY, I just ordered it. I got Mutiny pigment, since I already have Circa plum. one of the eyeshadows, one of the beauty powders, hmmm and cant remember the rest. But I will post pix when it comes in. ^.^

I have a stalker, who is annoying and a flaming vaginal area that cannot even spell, doesnt know shit about history and... yea he's the dumbest dude I've ever met.

I hate being played with, and men I know do that... all the fucking time. Every man plays with me. Constantly. Fucking a-holes. Men need to Stop with the flip flopping. One minute its, Omg I totally wanna f*** you. Then the next its, I dont want you, If I was single then we would totally Do shit together.... THen when  they are alone again...its-- Fuck I am so hard I want you to get on your knees. WHAT THE HELL MAN! I'm not a toy. I have feelings, and Im not made out of plastic. i want kisses, I want flowers... Fuck flowers I can just be happy with  holding my hand. What the hell is wrong with this picture?

Next every man I seem to meet, either A. Wants me to be their whore. Or B. Likes to dress up in womens underwear and wants a dildo up their asses. Hey I dont discriminate, do what you like. But, don't try to get with me while your doing it.

And Ive been depressed like crazy, why. Cause the image of some people... keeps popping into my fucking head. And I want to jump out a window. Sometimes I dont even realize how much I love, i fall hard. IT sucks. -sighs- whatever.

ANyway, Ive been doing some looks with Natasha and myself. Hope you guys like ^.^ There shall be more to come.

Update: Why I've not been posting

Hey guys, this is a update... as you can tell from the title. 
I've been away for a while, from the posting. But you guys can still follow me in twitter. I post on there almost everyday.
Been sick, eck. Story goes: Dentist did a root canal five years ago, last week friday I found out from my new dentist, who is a godsend. That this ex-dentist did the said root canal "HALF WAY".

My face was completely and utterly swollen. SWOLLEN!!!!!
My eye was swollen, my cheek was swollen, and to top it off I was in AGONY. Guess what I had an infection, do to this half done root canal. Thats the story.

Can you imagine how pissed and in pain I am???
Yea... tears man tearsss.

Anyways. I was in the hospital on the weekend, and this... I SWEAR she is an intern, dentist chick... She tortured me. TORTURED. My face went down a bit, but not completely. And the area where this woman cut me, and stabbed me and tortured me, yea.. Im scarred... emotionally and physically. LUCKY me. In so much painn..

My dream doctor, gave me diff meds, and took me off the vicodin. And it's helping, thank you god. He's my savior.

I have a tag to do, the wonderful Jodi, tagged me for the things I love and hate, in the beauty world. SO I am sooo sorry my darling I havent been able to do anything but pop pills and lay in bed watching Twilight and Iron Man.

Anyway love ya guys, thank you guys so much for actually reading these. And sticking with moi. I appreciate it. MUAHSS.


My Spring Style

So I have had these reoccuring dreams, about me wearing some really cute outfits. I was always in Australia, I think that place is calling me... or stalking me. 
But I had a particular look I would wear in these dreams, and many of you may have seen some on the runways in Feb. 

I am into the jump suit. But hear me out for a second. 
I am tall... o.d. tall, almost 6 feet to be exact. And the jumpsuits, look great on taller women. For shorter ladies, you can try to pull off something close to this, I have seen it before, without making you look like you're lost in fabric. 
I say.. whatever makes you feel good... wear it. Rock it out!! 
Also, YES... I am in lovvve... With the. 

Long shirt (tunic) that you can wear as a dress. 
This is from Arden B's, both of these outfits are. I got the tunic in white. I like the contrast between my dark skin, and white over it. 
I love the asymmetrical lines. And I dont usually like asymmetrical. But this I loved. 

As for accessories. I like simple. So a nice long necklace would be nice. I'm a white gold type of girl. But I have a lot of yellow gold as well, that I'm starting to wear more. And bangles. Loving the bangles. AS well as the
One bracelet and one necklace and a pair of earrings would be fine. Not too much accessories, It would offset the simplicity of the outfit. 

And of course we can not forget... heels. HEHE. 

This is from the spring/summer Jimmy Choo collection. L<3e>

10 Honest things about me.

I got this tag from the lovely smerfette, who has an amazing blog on here. It looked like an interesting tag, so I wanted to try it out. Hope you guys enjoy. ^.^

10 honest things about me


1.)  1. I’m almost 6 feet, 5’11 to be exact, I know…way tall.

2.)  2. I love taking photographs, I am a cam whore. ^.^

3.)  3. I’m an animal lover: I’ve had two guinea pigs, three dogs, and one cat. Both guinea pigs died (Candy & Brownie), because of my evil cousin, two dogs (Rocky, Leslie) were shot from old age, I cried and never forgave my uncle, one dog I had to give away my mum hates big dogs her name was Raven a Rottweiler. And my cat is named after the infamous vampire Lestat from Anne Rice’s novel.

4.)  4. I’m addicted to caramel, and chocolate. It is my sin. I can eat it for breakfast, lunch and dinner. And Rice Krispies treats lol. I eat like ten a day.

5.)   5.I love to read…A LOT. I have to read at least one book a month, and even then I’m not satisfied. And I mean like paper back, hardcover, go into Barnes and nobles and pay for the damn book. ^.^

6.)   6.I’m a Caribbean girl with many backgrounds. French, Portuguese, British, & Antiguan.

7.)   7.I’m my own worst enemy, really. I beat myself up more than anyone else could.

8.)   8.I’m brutally honest.

9.)  9. I’m addicted to lingerie and cosmetics.

10. I’m a designer shoe whore. BCBG, Cole Hahn, Christian Louboutin, Jimmy Choo’s, Coach, Prada, Steve Madden, etc. 

AI tag everyone that wants to do it. ^.^

Stylin' Tutorial Dupes

Okay so I did a tutorial today, inspired from a mac face chart, from the hello kitty collection...


Fun Fun. 

Anyway I have all the things I used listed on the video, you guys can check it out there. But for the people that want to recreate this, or want something close to the too dolly color romping and the colors from the lucky tom quad that I used, I found some very close dupes. Using the 88 shimmer palette from coastal scents hehe.
For Romping 

I know I took such bad pictures, lol, forgive me. But I'll try to explain it as best as I can. To get Romping, mix the 3rd and 4th colors from the pink section (this is the 5th row, counting from the darker eyeshadows) and the last purple color from the 4th row (the one right next to the pink section.) Swatches are at the bottom. The first pinky color is the dupe, the one next to it (2nd one) is the real color Romping... 
ok did you guys get that ? lolol The middle color is just a neater version. 
THe last two colors are stylin' & lucky tom, mixed. and the last color is the dupe. 

The colors that I am pointing to, get to you pretty close to it. It's not exact, but its close enough. Also, Top Knot (from BBR collection) is very close as well.
Ok I hope that wasn't...too confusing if it was, I am so sorry lmao. 
If you guys have any questions please ask. I like reading your comments and questions. ^.^ 
Luv ya guys. 

Tell me if you like the look ^.^

Skin Care: Vol. 2

This post is going to be on dry skin. 
Now we all kn
ow someone with dry skin, they are one of the few lucky ones. They hardly get pimples and we envy them. But they are not the holy grail of skin texture, if not treated and taken care of properly, their skin can look like a dry fleshy mess. Sorry for being so blunt. 
But like I have started before. Moisturizing is a saint. 
Think of your skin like a it will soak up whatever you put on it. if you put grease (i.e. petroleum jelly) it will soak that up, and you might break out. (My grandma used vaseline daily and NEVER had a I do
nt know, maybe it's a miracle cream for some) If you put water, it will absorb that...if you put the right moisture it will absorb that too. It'll just suck it up like a sponge. But if you just put water...and leave it there...eventually it will be hard and crusty and you'll have to wet it again to get it moving. See where I'm going. ^.^

Good skin care is a must...It is essential and should be come apart of your daily routine. Our skin is the largest organ on our why not treat it well. We would want to treat out hearts well, by eating the right things such as fruits, veggies, etc. We would cut out smoking to protect our lungs. So why not do all the same things for our skin? 

There are many different types of moisturizers for your said skin type. The one I use is for sensitive & combination type skin. Although my friend, who has dry skin, uses the same and it works well for her. 

Dry/Extra Dry skin
Characteristics: Feels tight after washing
May look dry or flaky
Feels rough and uneven; dehydrated
May be sensitive
Pores are small- almost invisible (LUCKY) llol 
Show fine lines faster than other skin types

How to care for dry skin: 
First Lifestyle- Drink lots of water to keep your skin hydrated. Think of your body as a car, it needs fuel in order to run or else it will die out on you and not ever move until you fill it up. Eat your fruits and veggies, these are high in water content, so in other words your putting back water into your skin. What ever you put in your mouth, your skin eats up too. Caffeinated drinks and alcohol (even though I LOVE it) cause dehydration, hence why you see that girl at the bar drinking up double the water to the cosmos she intakes. This helps with the tipsy-ness and also puts back hydration into your body since the alcohol takes that out. And I know, we LOVE our about drinking less of your usual eight cups a day and just drink one in the morning, in of course your favorite mug, and then the rest of the day drink lots of water, this will do the same as with the alcohol technique. Your rehydrating your body, an important step in your skin care regimen. 
Use richer cleansers, this will add moisture to your skin, this is not intended for oily based skins...BIG no no. Limiting sun exposure: the sun is hot, heat dries up moisture, it evaporates remember in science class back in elementary school when they were teaching us about evaporation. Well its the same concept with your skin. Sunscreen is importante. Night creams with alpha hydroxy acids can help remove dry dead skin, but moisture the new healthier skin cells. Instead of using the Air conditioner , think about a humidifier, this puts moisture back into the air. 

How do you know if you have dry skin? 

When your done washing your face, do not moisturize just yet. But look into the mirror, and feel the texture of your skin, if it is flaky then you have dry skin. If it feels tight, then you have dry skin. 

Next skin care blog will be about Skin care basics and how you change your lifestyle, to improve your skin. 
Muah my loves 

Amelia Wynter

Skin Care: Vol. 1

Now, I know I havent spoken about any skincare routine or anything relating to that topic...since I started this weird blog of mine ^.^ 
But I think it's time to start.
Skin care for moi, has been a battle for the longest time, up until the last 3 years. Before that, I was an acne prone petri dish. ECK. I had mega bumps and pimples and blemishes galor. When I was in high school, not many of my friends had acne, so I felt like the odd ball. With an ugly face.  -.- (tear) But... my mother was not giving up on my face, even if I already did. So I went to a dermatologist, the holy grail of face geniuses. My doctor (my godsent angel), looked at me and prescribed some medication. Differin. ANd as soon as I used it, I saw and felt a difference. In about 2 weeks, the pimples started to disappear and die down. And here I am today. 



My routine is fairly simple. I wash my face twice a day sometimes three, depending on the day and if I'm in the city doing a job. 
I use an Avon cleanser, but Im looking to switch. Its a gentle cleanser. I use a toner also from avon, and a mask...I do not use the toner when I use the mask. I use the mask once or twice a week depending on my mood. And I use a Mosturizer. But something has changed, and I've been using this since September. Mac's fix +... I dont know what is in it. But whatever it is. It is amazing. Lets just say I dont need differin anymore. hhaha. So I spray that on my face after I tone, and then I moisturize.  Fun Fun So...

Now as I've said before I am an advocate for moisturizing. I command it, yes I do. I do not care if you have the oiliest face on the block, there's a moisturizer for you. 

I'll be making these weekly. Discussing the different types of faces, what products to use, etc. It should be fun. ^.^

MAC Hello Kitty

What I'm Using Right Now Tag

I was reading Fafinette's blog, and she had this tag, it looked fun so I figure I'd do it ^.^


Shampoo: My Hair stylist does it ^.^ lol 
She uses SOOO many different things, no IDEA

Conditioner: Leave in Conditioner 


Body Wash: Philosophy Fudge Cake Cleanser, Victoria Secrets Amber ROmance Cleanser. 

Body Lotion: V.S. Amber Romance, V.S. moorea passion fruit, peony body lotion, etc. etc. 

Body Mists: Amber Romance (hmm fav. scent maybe), Juicy Couture, V.S. Touch me gently, etc. etc.

Deodorant: Donna Karen Cashmere Mist


Makeup Remover: Baby Wipes, or Cleanser

CLeanser: Avon 

Exfoliator: Avon 

Mask: Avon, Clinque 


Primer: Smashbox (for now)

Concealer: MAc Studio Sculpt NW 45 for blemishes & Moisture cover in NW 40 or 35

Foundation: Mineralized Skinfinish NW 45, VIncent Longo Sienna, 

Powder: Mineralized Skinfinish Natural Deep Dark

Blush: X-Rocks (Neo Sci Fi), Nars Sin, HK Fun & Games, Petticoat MSF, COastal Scents, etc.

Bronzer: So Ceylon, sometimes

Highlighter: Redhead MSF & Brunette MSF & Beligh

Eyebase: Too Faced Shadow Insurance (THE BESTTTT primer in the WORLD)

Eyeshadow: Satin Taupe (lid), 100 Stokes (outer lid) Top Knot (crease) Vellum (highlight)

Eyeliner: H.i.p. cream liner

Curler: (dont need to use it)

Mascara: Mac lash prep& prime, zoom lash & collosal lash maybelline

lipstick: mac Gleam (glaze), what a do, cute-ster

Lipgloss: tendertone, nars strip tease, nico, etc

Nail varnish: OpI dark purple (forgot the color lol) 

 I tagggggg: everyone that reads my blogger ^.^

Amelia - MUAHZZ

Product Review: Studio Sculpt Concealer

Product: Studio Sculpt Concealer
Rating: 10/10
Packaging: 10/10
Quality of Product: 9/10

Price: $16.50

Pros: The packaging, the consistency, blend-able, etc.

Cons: hmm cant think of any.

Notes: At first before trying out this concealer I had negative thoughts about it, I am more of a liquid concealer user, I prefer it because it is usually not oil based. So before purchasing this I thought it may be oil based. When i received the product, the first thing that caught my eye was the packaging, LOVE IT. IT is so much better than the packaging for the studio finish concealer. And Unlike the studio finish concealer, it is much softer, gel like. When you dip your brush or if your one that loves to use their fingers by all means go ahead. The consistency is what makes this a grade A product. I love it. The reason I gave it a 9/10 for quality, is because I am a liquid concealer girl, so im not sure if it is oil based or not lol. It is longwearing, it lasted all day, so that definitely made me fall even more in love. I hate concealer, or any face product for that matter that gets patchy on the skin as the day goes on. SO overall I suggest purchasing it. ^.^

I will be doing a product review each week. Next week will probably be the foundation. ^.^

LOVEE You guys 


Lucky Tom

Lucky Tom is quite pretty. It was the palette I fell in love with since I saw the photos up on specktra. Well I did my first look with it today, tomorrow I think I'll do a look with my Too Dolly quad, I finally got that one. I really like it, its pretty.
Today I went to the CCO and they had the heatherette trio 1, yay,. I missed out on that entire collection mainly because Cesar broke my heart right around that time...and I was in the hospital every week practically after that. Yes I took it hard, I dont deal well with break ups, especially after 4 years and my fucking virginity. Men...I hate them sometimes.
But apart from my ranting, I did some damage, so bad so bad. But I like the stuff I purchased. I finally got a fluidline, even though it wasn't in blacktrack, it was a fluid line none the less. And Thanks to MsChellz on youtube, I went to this website that sells mac products for a cheaper price. All They are around CCO prices, SOME of the stuff. The brushes are fairly reduced, could be lower, but hey. The lip products are really down, etc. etc. Check out the site for yourselves.
I got two brushes that I really wanted the 150 powder brush and the 168 I think it is, which is the angled contour brush. And then I got the nars holiday eyeshadow palette, and some other stuff you guys will see when it gets here. And thanks to julieg for putting up the friends and family code for facefront cosmetics, I finally was able to buy some eyeshadows yay. ^.^ hehe.
Anyway onto pix I added a picture of the hello kitty swatches, from the video i did.

Anti-Valentines Day

Ok Today is obviously Valentines Day, and by the title you guys can see that I am against this holiday, with a PASSION.
From since I was a child, I can remember myself Hating...I MEAN HATING valentines day. Since I am a psych major, I will evaluate myself for you guys.

I suppose as a child I was deprived of that male figure and craved that relationship with a male, so therefore I had my many crushes which were relentlessly embrassing. Because they were not that cute, I just craved that attachment to some male figure, and if any one of the male species even touched me, I developed an instant crush. Pathetic huh. Since I was "relentlessly" Put down by all of these men, and I have been hurt by many men, including my past love, I have developed a... complex I guess I could say. And this complex has lead me to hate every thing about love. ^.^

Yes that is my problem I hate love because of all the shit men have put me through within my life. ANd many of you are thinking, girl you are young, yea I am... But I guarantee you I have gone through much more than half of you have within my 20 years of life. First of all lets not even go into pain. My pain tolerance is in the roof, I have had random pain all my life, the reason I shall not get into now. Spontaneous, this is what my life goes by. Spontaneous love, Spontaneous pain, etc. etc. Ugh Life... pathetic, but without these spontaneous shit, it wouldn't be an interesting life now wouldn't it.

Well why my title, Anti-Valentine's Day...DO not get my wrong, Love is love and if you are in love then more power to you. As you can see from my post about my ex, I was IN LOVE, and when I was in that state it was the most beautiful thing in my life at the time. ANd I would die for that feeling again, it was better than my thoughts of heaven. It was my heaven, being in his arms at night was my heaven, him kissing me was my heaven, him on top of me was heaven for me. But it all came crashing down, and I am in purgatory, a lesson learned. But if anyone feels like they are in love, then hey..Im happy for you. And I hope you have that feeling for the rest of your life. It's the greatest feeling in the world.
This is not Anti Valentines Day, to be bashing love completely, even though I have had my problems with it. This is just to bash the day itself, the day that marketing geniuses make their cash load off of some poor guy that just wants to get laid. So he buys his girlfriend of one month a box of chocolates and some roses and then boom there he goes he's got a whole night to prove how good he is in bed. ^.^ This day is just a marketing ploy, just to get people's money. Have we forgot the real reason of valentines day. Have we forgotten the history behind this bloody day?

A little history lesson
This day was originally a pagan holiday that was renamed by two christian martyrs named Valentine, hence Saint Valentines day.
"Numerous early Christian martyrs were named Valentine. Until 1969, the Catholic Church formally recognized eleven Valentine's Days.The Valentines honored on February 14 are Valentine of Rome (Valentinus presb. m. Romae) and Valentine of Terni (Valentinus ep. Interamnensis m. Romae). Valentine of Rome was a priest in Rome who suffered martyrdom about AD 269 and was buried on the Via Flaminia. His relics are at the Church of Saint Praxed in Rome. and at Whitefriar Street Carmelite Church in Dublin, Ireland.
Valentine of Terni became bishop of Interamna (modern Terni) about AD 197 and is said to have been killed during the persecution of Emperor Aurelian. He is also buried on the Via Flaminia, but in a different location than Valentine of Rome. His relics are at the Basilica of Saint Valentine in Terni (Basilica di San Valentino).
The Catholic Encyclopedia also speaks of a third saint named Valentine who was mentioned in early martyrologies under date of February 14. He was martyred in Africa with a number of companions, but nothing more is known about him.
No romantic elements are present in the original early medieval biographies of either of these martyrs. By the time a Saint Valentine became linked to romance in the fourteenth century, distinctions between Valentine of Rome and Valentine of Terni were utterly lost."- Wikipedia

Martyrs yet we treat this holiday like one big greeting card. It's so much more than that, but we're blinded by the ambitions of the greeting card companies and the florists. Oh buy 2 dozen roses she is sure to bed you tonight. No...
If a guy were to...actually think about what he wanted to give me...or do for me, if he actually put some thought into it without rushing to the store to get a bunch of rose, then yes maybe I might fuck him... maybe. We forget, valentines day or the day of love is everyday. Why can we not profess our love everyday of the year, why do we have to do it on this one day? There is so much more to love than a hallmark greeting card, there is passion there is everything you thought you had but when you look into his eyes you realize how empty your life really was.
Love should be everyday... We should shout our love for someone every day of the goddamn year, not just this one. Not because the television tells us so.
So yes Anti-Valentines Day, its a movement, join if you want to lol. I welcome any and everyone. lolol. But seriously...tell the one you love, that you love them everyday not just this damn bloody day.


Hello my lovelys. ok Update, Im posting a video later today, or this morning whatever lol. But it'll be out today. It is an update video, on something that happened. And what the situation entails is that this guy "nycSpiderman" Stole my Dark Knight digital copy. Now alot of people may think this is petty, especially since I am so livid. But I have my reasons,
1. It was mine
2. I brought it
3. He had no right to

See, so many reasons, but the piece of shit (excuse my french) chose to steal MY code, WAHT THE FUCK man.
So I reported him, not only to itunes but warner brothers as well.
The whole reason I'm mad is because you try to do something nice for people, and there is always that one person out of the bunch that has to be an EVIL little fucker. I cursed him out so bad the other day, and then my ex lover, CESAR, just HAD TO fuck with me that day, he JUST had to mess with me. He has the most perfect timing to get me even more livid. And I think thats because I still love him, and he knows it so he uses it to his advantage and fucks with my emotions and mental state. So I cussed him out too. But he got the blunt of it. Which he deserved, he didn't need to push old shit in my face, he lucky I didnt tell him to fuck his whoring bitch. (I curse alot -.-) But then we made up, like we always do after a fight, we make up that day....I hate it when he does that to me. He makes me so weak. Then he teases me, with things he knows I like him saying, its like when you hold candy infront of a baby, but pull it away before they grab onto it too tight. Its like, WHY did you have to tempt me then if you were going to take the damn thing away. UGH. Anyway, this weekend, I'll be doing a 5 facts about moi video. And there are some other videos coming up, like my skin care routine, my foundation routine, etc.

Later my loves.

The l/s is Big Bow from the HK collection. ^.^

MAC Hello Kitty Event

OK so its like 1:25 in the morning, I am tired, my knee hurts and I have a throbbing headache. I have to get up early manana just to go get my hair done, because I have a date with mikey boy who is now learning how to call ^.^ THANK YOU SWEETY! Good Boy!

BUTTTTT apart from the obvious fact that I am completely delusional right now and my eyes are slowly closing....
Tonight was kick arse... well technically last night hehe.

The event started at 7p.m. there was a long ass line, Me and my mum got there at 5:30, we were the very first ones. Went in the store and the guy told us to come back at 7. SO we went to eat at this local soho bar/restaurant right down the block from the apple storeee (WHERE stalker boy works)

So we ate, the food was aMazing! came back, long ass line, I was like what the F. SO we went to the middle of the line, which was about two stores down. And guess who I met...DRBrooklyn, she is so pretty and so nice.
So we all went in the store, and...That store was like...crammed. PACKED like a can of tuna fish. No air to breathe. People pushed, shoved, kicked, and even was so nosy to be dead on in front of you looking at your reciept with you...again people...WHAT THE F!

But apart from that, it was such fun, they served pink lemonade with vodka...OoOoO VODKAAAAA. Love the vodka, hmm Im guessing....Smirnoff. hehehe.
So good thing I prepared my list like before I left my house, All I had to do was check off the list on the little pink slip thing. Guess what, ugh...They did not have the beauty powders on the slip so I didnt get to get mad. But I'll just order them. Aw well. lol.

The event was fun fun fun, I drank drank drank lol. Yeaaa thats me. And now I leave you with pics and I shall depart I will tell you about my date manana....OoO sexy. hahah. I'm so twisted.

Smokey EyE tutorial.

I was trying to upload this whole, & it wouldnt work. So I guess that pushed me to edit it. And guess what,...I learned how too YAY lol. Well, I can't take all the credit, my ex Ces taught me how. He's good for something I guess. The editing is a little choppy in my opinion, but it's my first video with imovie so yea be nice lol.

I'll be doing a request video manana. YAY i finally got a request. Anyone else that has a request, just leave a commi on my page or my youtube ^.^ yay. loll

Luv ya guys.

Smokey EyE Tutorial

I did a vid. this morning of me doing my makeup, I have noooo Idea how to edit this in imovie, If anyone knows how to do that...Can you please tell me, I would appreciate it. ^.^ Thank youuuuu.

Random shit :

Here's a pic of me and my ex (the love of mi life, bastard_) The birds were are babies lol.